Cancer is a B, but my God is Bigger.

Cancer.

It has become one of the most daunting words to hear. 

Ten year ago, I started what was supposed to be the best year of my high school career. Senior year. However, by October, it became one of the most challenging years of high school. October. The month we found out one of my best friends since 6th grade had Hodgkins Lymphoma. It was the first time someone close to me had been diagnosed with something so serious. 

Our friends banded together to surround her with love and encouragement and (most importantly) laughter. By our Senior summer trip, she had beat it. (Take that Cancer!) 

Now, ten years later, I have been forced to face the fact: Cancer is still a bitch. 

This past June my mom went in to see the doctor for some stomach pain she had been having. After a month and a half of testing and doctor's appointments and operations, we were finally given some clear news. It was malignant cancer in her lymph nodes. 

The moment on hearing the news (much like that of ten years prior) I couldn't breathe. If it had not been for my friends and family and all their prayers for me and my family, I'm not sure we would have made it through the last 3 months. 

I now know what "peace that passes all understanding" is. I should not have been able to handle it. Truthfully, I wasn't. (I'm still not.) However, I know that my family and I serve a good God. A God who promises to prosper us not to harm us. So I am resting in the belief and the knowledge that this disease has not won. 

The battle is the Lord's now and forevermore. Of this I am certain.  Not to say that I don't have bad days (especially on those days that it hits me I cannot be with my family as much as I would like to), but I have peace knowing God is the same God who loved me enough to send His son.  This painful season will not last forever and it will not be in vain. My God is good and His mercies are new every morning.  

Sorry for the cursing, but to be frank, cancer sucks but my God is good even still.

Thankful for you all.

Love you all.